#i loved her

I see the way you two talk

and I know what’s happening

because it happened to you and me 

a long time ago I was your first choice

In your arms I was the happiest

I have been for long

how could I have known

my happy place will hurt me so bad

I never really liked my hometown

but after you

I hated it

I want to run away and never come back

Is it worth my pain

to give you the time

to make up your mind

what if your final decision 

hurts more than being uncertain

Deep down we both knew

that we were not forever

I can smell your scent

wherever I go

but when I think about you

I can’t even remember how your hand felt in mine 

I should have realized it sooner

from the start I should have known

that it was all just a game to you

Why did it take so long

for me to realize

that everything that happened

ruined me

The high I got from you

from your smile and your touch

I get it from different places now